You know how you say that if you follow your dreams, they'll come true? That's a lie!
They act like people who really deserve something are always going to have things work out in their favor.
Let me explain. Royal Northern College of Music, located in Manchester, is like a complete dream to me. If I could have one thing for my life, it would be that.
But that, my friends, will never happen. You may try to be supportive and say "Oh don't worry Sara, I know you'll get in, you're sooo good at piano and singing lolz" But please don't waste your time.
I know I'm talented. But am I talented enough? No. Doesn't that suck? I'm not looking for pity, and I'm not looking for sympathy. If I were, I'd be saying "Oh my God, I'm not good at all." I know I'm good, but I'm not good enough.
So, I have time (Four or maybe five years) to get good enough. But will that happen? Probably not. There are people applying there who have been reading sheet music their whole lives and I just started about three weeks ago. I've been playing my whole life, yeah, but I've never had to opportunity to learn anything about pedals or anything like that.
I'm so scared. I don't want to be one of those people who dreamed of being a musician but ended up being a banker, or a cop, or something mediocre. I don't know how to express myself in words about my passion for music. All kids these days say they love music and it's really annoying because they don't. They just like the sound of it, but they don't truly let -- nevermind. I can't explain it. It's something to be experienced, not described. I can say, however, that I think about music the way someone might think of their significant other. I always am thinking about the next time I will be interacting with the stripes, letting my fingers wander and my voice spill out of my lungs.
WOW, I am getting really deep. I need to get into this school...
(Maybe I'll put this in my application in a few years.
"This is what I've been thinking ever since I found out about this school, in my Freshman year of high school. Check me out."
Nah, that would sound whiny and unprofessional.)
Oh yeah. Did I mention it's in fucking Manchester? Hell yes.
They act like people who really deserve something are always going to have things work out in their favor.
Let me explain. Royal Northern College of Music, located in Manchester, is like a complete dream to me. If I could have one thing for my life, it would be that.
But that, my friends, will never happen. You may try to be supportive and say "Oh don't worry Sara, I know you'll get in, you're sooo good at piano and singing lolz" But please don't waste your time.
I know I'm talented. But am I talented enough? No. Doesn't that suck? I'm not looking for pity, and I'm not looking for sympathy. If I were, I'd be saying "Oh my God, I'm not good at all." I know I'm good, but I'm not good enough.
So, I have time (Four or maybe five years) to get good enough. But will that happen? Probably not. There are people applying there who have been reading sheet music their whole lives and I just started about three weeks ago. I've been playing my whole life, yeah, but I've never had to opportunity to learn anything about pedals or anything like that.
I'm so scared. I don't want to be one of those people who dreamed of being a musician but ended up being a banker, or a cop, or something mediocre. I don't know how to express myself in words about my passion for music. All kids these days say they love music and it's really annoying because they don't. They just like the sound of it, but they don't truly let -- nevermind. I can't explain it. It's something to be experienced, not described. I can say, however, that I think about music the way someone might think of their significant other. I always am thinking about the next time I will be interacting with the stripes, letting my fingers wander and my voice spill out of my lungs.
WOW, I am getting really deep. I need to get into this school...
(Maybe I'll put this in my application in a few years.
"This is what I've been thinking ever since I found out about this school, in my Freshman year of high school. Check me out."
Nah, that would sound whiny and unprofessional.)
Oh yeah. Did I mention it's in fucking Manchester? Hell yes.
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