I must first point out how infuriated I am that Matt Bellamy won sexiest male. I'm chafed two parts because no matter how great Muse is, Matt Bellamy is not that attractive, and one part because I wish someone else would have won. I never said he was bad looking and I hope I don't get assassinated for saying this, but he's just not as attractive as the others who were nominated for that award. Keith Murray of We Are Scientists was nominated. Miles Kane was nominated as far as I remember. They're both sexier. Alex Turner was then burned when he lost "best dressed" to his female, Alexa Chung. Even though I did vote for Alex (I promise it's not cos I'm in love with him, I honestly do think he has nice style!) I can definitely see why Alexa won. I'd rob her closet if given the chance. Moving on, MGMT was dubbed "best new band" and while I do really like MGMT, it confuses me that they've won the best new band award considering they're not that new. They were apparently titled "Track of the Year" and "Album of the Year" in 2008 which shows that they're not as fresh as some of the other bands that were nominated. I personally voted Late of the Pier on that one. I can't be upset that MGMT is winning awards though, cos they're great. Muse won best live band, and I can't have much of an opinion on this since I haven't seen them live. I'm just glad the Killers didn't win, cos from what I hear they're not good live. I'd have to see it before I believed it though. Dizzee Rascal won "Best Dancefloor Filler" which I can understand. I forgot what I voted for that one. "Best Album" went to Kings of Leon, which once again is something I can understand. I may have voted for them but forgot again. Glastonbury was named best live event, which has only made me even more jealous (if possible) that I can't go. The Killers won best international band. I really love the Killers but there are better international bands. After "Day & Age" I can say I'm getting bored of them. Robert Smith wins "Godlike Genius." Enough said. Pete Doherty wins "Best Solo Artist" but I have to say I like him better as a Libertine.

I just wish I could have been there. Apparently there were killer performances from White Lies, Blur, Franz, and the Cure who closed with some of their best hits. That's it. I'll write for NME, and just get invited to these things. I will be a VIP. And you will all be jealous.

But not really.
It has recently come to my attention that I do, in fact, have readers! Not very many, but they are readers nonetheless. And as a blogger, I feel it is my duty to blog about things you care about. So what I want you all to do is e-mail me suggestions at stoll.sara@yahoo.com.

Please do not hesitate to give me ideas. I don't care who you are or what your idea is, I don't bite. If you want, you could even e-mail me annonymously (by using a different e-mail) or you could leave me a comment here. I need your help not because I run out of things to say, but because I want my blog to appeal to you. I don't want to just write about things I want to talk about, but I want to write about things that also interest you.

Thanks. (:
The title is absolutely correct. David Bowie is absolutely correct. We could be heroes, but should we take advantage of that opportunity? I don't know...

I don't have heroes anymore. Not that I ever truly did, cos back then (whenever that is) I didn't know myself. I would say that certain musicians or ordinary people who I looked up to were my heroes, but that was false. Slowly but surely, I've learned that there is a difference between heroes and idols. Idols, I do have. Heroes, I lack. I don't think I really want a hero anyway. A hero is defined on www.dictionary.com as someone with heroic qualities or has performed an heroic act. No one that I idolize or love does that, to be completely honest.

I don't want a hero, though. I want to be able to validate my ego on my narcissistic days by telling myself that I got where I am today by myself. Sure, others helped me, but no one gave the care-bear-stare to anyone who got in my way. No one kicked anyone who paused me on my "journey of life" into the depths of hell while screaming some epic quote. That would be a hero.

I hate to make this post sound so angry, cos honestly no anger is coming out of it at all. I'm just trying to reassure myself that I lived my life without someone walking me through each step. It's one of the few things that I take pride in.
Picture in your head someone without religious faith who is average or below average in school and possibly experiments with drugs and alcohol. Does this person have morals? Well, yes, they quite possibly do.

I think it's time that people open their minds to the possibility that a morally stable person doesn't have to be perfect. The basis of someone's beliefs and personal values doesn't necessarily have to come from the public view of a successful person. Personally I think it's hard for someone who doesn't have many life experiences (that isolated, straight-A kid who is actually in a cultural coma) to have morals, if they haven't experienced the latter of life. You can't know the difference between good and bad if you've never been near bad. I'm waiting for people (or at least the narrow minded suburban people I know) to realize that it's possible for people who don't follow the perfect path of life to have morals.

I don't think I'm perfect. But I know I have morals. Just cos I don't have a 4.0 GPA does not necessarily mean that I'm going to fuck up in life because I have no sense of behavior. I don't think I believe in God. But I'm not going to suffer an eternal afterlife in hell because of that, no matter what I believe or don't believe. I drink. I've smoked weed (it's not all it's cracked up to be), and I've wanted to try party drugs. But does this make me any less of a person? No, because these are things I would do for my personal experiences. In my opinion, trying new things, no matter what it is (drugs, religion, doing good in school or bad in school) would make me a better person cos I'd be more well rounded.

It's just who I am. I'm crazy, outgoing, I can be loud and have a lot of fun. But at the end of the day, I'm sitting in my half-lit room thinking to myself about my future and my life. I'm not one of those people that sits on their ass waiting for things to come to me, I do what I need to do to get things done. The only reason things seem that way is the fact that time goes by so slowly.

The difference between me and someone who isn't very book smart and wastes their life away with substance is that everything I do, I do with an open mind. I will listen to anything you have to say and instead of being stubborn and arguing my opinion, I will first consider yours and evaluate it's validity.

Anyways, over the past few days I've realized exactly what I'm looking for in a relationship. I'm looking for a smart guy. Not necessarily book smart, but a guy who has common sense and the capacity to think at the same kind of level that I do. I know they exist because I've dated one before. I know when guys are faking intelligence, by the way. A lot of guys recently have been trying to win me over by using big words...
In honor of Valentine's Day (which is quite possibly one of the most pointless holidays for single people, but I'm not going to complain) I decided I'd post a blog about love/relationships. But... this is my blog so I'm going to personalize it instead of generalizing the topic.

There are two paths I could follow right now for my love life; I need you to help me decide which one. Even though I'll probably just do what I want anyway, let me have your feedback.

The first approach I could take is the less serious one. Most people my age are taking this path at the moment and dating around. They decide if they like someone and that someone happens to be interested as well, they should date. They don't really consider compatibility or how things will end and possibly ruin their friendship, they just have fun with it. I've been doing this ever since I started dating and I'm reconsidering if I should do this. A lot of people continue to do this throughout their lives until they marry.

Or, I could be more picky about dating. I could date guys that are actually worth my time. I could wait until a guy comes around that I don't wish was different in any way. Of course, this way, I'd probably miss out on a lot of fun. I hate to hurt people though and I normally end up dumping guys cos I realize that I'm not going to be with them forever and I let the little things about them piss me off easily.

Who knows. I'm starting to not really care. Hooray for spending my Valentine's Day with Franz Ferdinand!
I feel weird... it's not like I've never had a blogger before, but it's just been a while. I figured I could just blog on Myspace, but now Catie (one of probably three of my devoted readers) doesn't use Myspace anymore. To be honest, I prefer Facebook anyway but they don't really have a blog function, so I figured it was time to get a new, official blog. Technically, this is my first post. All of the previous ones were just transferred here from my Myspace blog cos I didn't want to have to start fresh and have an empty blog. All I need to do now is get some serious readers... as if.